why is just about everyone else around me happy in school? and i just sulk in sadness? arrrggh. i cant seem to engage in lessons and be happy. cos they are exciting/interesting/funny.
like some are like laughing gayly, and im have this half-smile-"ok....it isnt really THAT funny".
or a lame action carried out, and the people who witnessed it are laughing, pointing, expressing happiness, and laughing, while im like- "what?" but i try to laugh along; instead a half frown and half amused face comes out, actually 3/4 frown.

im so disappointed in myself. bleahx. why cant i get happy? thank you dinny for trying to cheer me up. not that i dont agree with the theory, but my feelings-inner emotions?- get in the way and i cant seem to make myself happy. and im really frustrated when i see others so happy, cos i wonder why im unhappy.
ok.
enough abt that.
i love the name "BROOKE"! its really really nice! except it has a single syllable. haiz.
one tree hill is really nice too! ((: like its an old show, but its still nice. (: i like brooke. haha. guess that explains why i like her name.

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