badchinese

i feel like screaming out loud at the beach right now. and feel the rush of wind sweep past my face, and im holding on to that precious and beautiful moment in time. awwwwww... haha. i really do feel like screaming.

one question: do i look like the kind who is emotionally strong and mentally stable person?? like do i come across as very calm and collected always?? sorry if i sound ego or stupid or whatever but ya. doing a "survey". lol.

if u do, i'd like to say this: im not as strong as i seem. omg! i sound so ego. bleahx. im not!!! im not trying to be as well. as in like everyone has their weaknesses and down times right? even the strongest person in this world will have his/her weak and depressing and upset moments. erm whatever. im talking crap.

todays chinese was hard. but i felt relieved after it ended. i suppose im the sort whos like really pessimistic before the event, but after that, hey who cares? i did my best, and even if i didnt, i still tried, and im kinda proud that i tried. its not like i just gave up, then i really ought to be ashamed of myself. but if i tried even the slightest bit, i leave the rest to god. and fate.

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MATTHEW! ((:



a story of us

a team of runners spent years to prepare for the upcoming competition. after such an arduous journey filled with much exhaustion, perspiration and hardwork, and at the same time, laughter, lessons of teamwork and memorable, unforgettable moments, these runners finally get ready for the upcoming relay events.

then just a few days before, some start seeing imperfections and flaws in another's running style etc, and discovers certain other facts about the other person. so there begins a disagreement which leads to a cold war. this disagreement leads to this previously strong team built on years of teamwork, unity, happiness, closeness and above all friendship, breaks up. perhaps the problem that led to that day is not just disagreements, but a piling up from previous arguments and dislike and whatever else. once a team who were determined to finish that race together, now a broken up group who are no longer friends.

no doubt the team would have to split after they finished that race, but that doesnt mean that the friendship that was cultivated, built and developed had to end because of that. compared to the friendship, wont a obstacle pale in contrast? the friendship that developed used to brave all kinds of weather, but now, the storm has finally got us.

did i remember wrongly? wasnt our freidnship meant to last forever? werent we all supposed to stick together? were we not to finish the race together?

what happened to us?