Sports Day!

the weather was hothot. didnt get burnt, i think but surely tanned a little more. milo was refreshing and the races got my heart racing. i should think it was the same with the other competitors too.

my stamina is incredibly shortlived. cos i couldnt give my all for the races after the 400m. those were low points for me.

i wonder if i had said anything insensitive. maybe i did. haha. anyway i realised recently, im getting increasingly affected by what others' view of me is. i get extremely concerned about what they think and what they say. its this insecurity, that probably stems from primary school days. cant remember much of it but i know ever since i never felt really secure. just always trying to fit in. sometimes i wish to say certain things, but i dont cos im afraid the friendship isnt strong enough to withstand it.

perhaps thats how friendships get stronger and deeper, but i dont feel ready to make that extra effort yet i guess. seeing how a few friendships have fallen apart, it has indirectly influenced me just a bit to not end up that way.