during the exam period and after that, which is now, i figured out something about myself. i deal with problems by suppressing them. yes! i love pushing them to a side and locking them there. i dont like and dont know how to confront them, and the personality test pretty much confirms this. i hated what i found out during the exams so i decided i would forget about it. guess i did for a while.

i think im a bad friend, cos sometimes the people whom i talk to, i dont really like-like them. in fact im just being a hypocrite half the time! and even if i dont like someone's attitude or what nots, ill still pretend to be nice. or im trying to be nice but at the same time.. hmm, im talking nonsense.

so, my birthday is soon but i dont want it to come. not sure why. maybe cos i dont wanna become 16? haha. maybe. maybe its because i have a bad feeling about that day.