You know how the phrase 'time waits for no man' goes? i truly feel it now. these few days have been every bit of depressing. i'm rethinking my decision every moment and it kind of sucks, because dwelling on whats past is useless. yes i know that, but i cant help wondering if i could have had it better. i wonder why i was such a weak person to have chosen to stay in my comfort zone. i really dont know if what i did was right/wrong. maybe there is no right or wrong, but right now i cant see where im going with my life, with no goals, no aspiration, no dreams - absolutely nothing. theres no apt word to describe it; it feels like a cross between regret, devastation, hopeless, stupidity and fear. fear of the unknown. i dont know what im going end up as and while i might have somewhat a goal, i dont see how what im doing is ever gonna get me there. im not matching up to expectations and im underperforming and everything is bleak. project work's tough and gross and we're making no progress and im doing nothing about it and we still havent got a reply from the organisations i contacted. i need counselling.