Please all, and please none.

How apt. I found out some things today and took home some doubt and some revelation. that indeed theres no way to please everyone. yet, its an ideal i hold that i do. what a crush. :/ sometimes i wish i could relive the year, others i wish i could just relive my whole life. wonder how different i could have turned out. troubled by the impressions i have made unintentionally and what i havent done enough. and y'know sometimes i wish i was my sister. shes much better at friendships and just chatting. im finding it harder to even want to talk to people now. or maybe its like hormonal changes and a low phase. haha.

i was being selfish today, but i shant dwell; start afresh tmrw! on a happier note, chinese chess is pretty fun to play! esp when i unknowingly won by jiang, si qi. (: the satisfaction of tyco winning - not much. darren smartly shuang pao jiang me. i shall play more chinese chess from now on. haha. and i like playing chess quickly. fast moves that are often very myopic - but its still fun!

off to learn some stuff about crime and punishment. electric chairs intrigue me. what a twisted mind, you say? aye. (;