confusion

life is full of ups and downs.

thats just a pathetically positive way to say that LIFE HAS IT DOWNS AND UPS. why not downs 1st and ups later? cos the person who created this phrase was really optimistic. haiz.

anyway, with regards to the person i was referring to in my previous posts, i shall not reveal for the sake of THAT person and his/her reputation and feelings. im so nice even tho i dont like that person. sigh. IM SO NICE((: whatever to u, u extra, feel free to do whatever u want- u will never ever get to know me as a true friend- tho i always act like u are and be so nice to u and smile at u- im REALLY lyng thru my teeth. ha. TRY HARDER PLEASE! u think u are in- u are wrong. cos u will never receive my welcome- EVER. goodbye for now. shant elaborate or touch on this topic ever again. UNLESS...

anyway, im so troubled. over THE (c)x2 THING. then the EXTRA thing, then now everyone has problems. SAD. and then my bestfriend has to have some other problems. and all these make me worried. and i cant believe im actually blogging while researching stupid YIP's energy sources ways of garnering electricity. SHIT. shes nogood a teacher. sucks. she SUCKS BIG TIME. come read my blog please? and then u will know how ur feelings for me are mutual- u better not teach my class next year- if u do- u better not be biased against me. cos if u are i will see to it that u get a punishment u deserved ever since u joined our school. ILL SEE TO THAT! hmph.

and then now- my twig is sick. so sad. he is on mc. wahhhhhhhhhh... so sad. )): )': im sad for him. i care for him. ((: hes nice to me. and hes friendly. and how could he come down with such an awful illness? BOOHOO.

i love all the people whom i know. REALLY. i love u all. and i care for u all tho maybe i don seem like i do cos of my erm- kiam pa face? or my sulking face? or my irritating mannerisms. or --- something! so lemme just say that my ears are open anytime anywhere- just to listen to u. and without ur permission to tell other people- i probably wont. i mean i wont. but to others whom i havent kept that 'promise', sorry. ): please forgive. me.