Tired

It's the 4th day of the new year and i'm already tired, worn down with everything i'm doing - meeting up with friends, knowing new friends, making an effort to talk. i enjoy company and chatting and learning new things everyday, getting to know new people, but especially now after weeks of idling and going out so much it's... numbing. i think that's the word. that school's starting again in less than 1 week only adds to the heaviness.

sometimes i think in third person voice, to get myself to snap out of this pathetic-ness, but it doesn't work like that does it?

the feeling has passed, goodnight.